I am usually very religious about checking myself every
month like you're supposed to, but for some reason I forgot the last few
times. So when I put on a new underwire bra, it poked me on the
side. I felt that area and the lump. It felt so weird, like a soft,
squishy ball. Of course this happened on a weekend (don't they always?)
so I had to wait until Monday to get some answers.
I remembered that a few years ago after having my yearly
mammogram I had to go back in to have a diagnostic mammogram and an
ultrasound. I don't remember what they said but it was
nothing. My new lump was in the same area. I had never felt it
before, so it must have grown over the last few months.
I always wondered if I would know if I had a lump or not, as
my breasts are very lumpy anyways. How would I know the
difference? But I knew that if I kept checking myself every month, I
would learn what was normal and what was not. And I did. At
least the cyst confirmed that theory.
While I was growing up my mom had numerous cysts over the
years. She told me of a big, long needle they would use for a
biopsy. Thankfully none were cancerous. But I am terribly afraid of
And I couldn't imagine losing my breasts. I like my
breasts. I like that I have breasts! I didn't realize how much they
are part of me until I had the first tests a few years ago. It finally
hit me what a big deal breast cancer is. Our breasts are a part
of our identity as women. For better or for worse, they are a part of who
we are. I didn't want to lose that. Especially when there is
not much else feminine about me!
So I went in to my OBGYN and had the diagnostic mammogram
and ultrasound. Cysts. And no biopsy with a big, long needle.
I write this to tell you to check your breasts every
month! If you don't know how, you can go to the American
Cancer Society website. It may save your life.