Tuesday, July 10, 2018

First Drawing


This is my first drawing that I completed in my art class.  It is a copy from another drawing.  It is quite a process of first tracing the picture on a clear plastic large grid sheet with a red pen, then drawing on large grid paper.  Then I used a calligraphy pen to trace the picture.  It took me about 5 hours.  I so enjoyed doing it.  Partly because it doesn't involve my left hand and arm that are often sore.  I'm quite pleased with the results.  It feels good to be successful at something.  And it is relaxing.  Even if I make a mistake, I can erase it and it affects nobody.  I can keep working on it until I get it right.  

Tuesday, June 26, 2018

Failure is not Final

Get Back Up
I loved this message at my church so much that I am sharing it with you.  You can click on the Get Back Up above and watch it online.  One of the stirring quotes in the video is "failure is not final."  I so need that as I am struggling with trying to start a Bible study in my home.
I am doing this through my church, so my group is listed on their website, and I posted notices in all the buildings of my complex.  At first, I had 5 interested.  Now it is down to 2, and only one has shown up.  Although I did meet another elsewhere in a neutral place to assure her.  The 3 that changed their minds said they might join in the fall.  
It is hard not to feel like a failure here.  I also am struggling at work as we are using a new curriculum that I am not familiar with, so that can be nerve-wracking for me too.  I always seem to feel nervous before work, Bible study, volunteering, and even my art class, to the point of not wanting to go.  But I force myself and it usually turns out well.  Even so, when I fail, it consumes me like a fire, and it is hard to let it go.  I am a lot harder on myself than I am on others.  Why is that?  Why do I expect perfection from myself but not others?  
So I have to remember Peter, what this message is about.  About how even though he failed, Jesus forgave him, and restored him so much that he became the first leader of the Christian church.  So I have to remember that even though I fail, it is not final, and I have to forgive myself and get back up again.  

Tuesday, June 19, 2018

Art Academy


Monday night I finally started my beginning drawing and painting class at this place above.  I loved it!  I didn't want to leave!  I have always wanted to learn to draw and paint but never felt like I could.  I took a drawing  class in high school but I usually only got C's, and the teacher was always flirting with the boys.  Needless to say, it was a  frustrating experience.  But I always loved art.  I've always loved doing it and looking at it.  But there are no art places nearby for adults.  So this place is in St. Paul, which isn't so bad as I am going against rush hour traffic.  So if you want to try something, go for it!  Don't let your past dictate your future.  I always saying that failure is failing to try.  

Tuesday, June 5, 2018

Hope 4 Youth


I started volunteering for this place last week.  My church told its congregation about it, so I went on a tour and decided that I would like to volunteer for this place.

They help homeless youth in the Anoka area.  I had no idea there was a problem with homeless youth in my area, but there is.  There are various places to volunteer at, like the drop in center at the old milk factory in Anoka, where youth come in and receive various services.  Another place is their boutique in Champlin, where they sell goods and give the money to the organization.  Third, there is Hope Place, a residential home for youth on the path to independence.  Finally, there are other areas of need for volunteer.

I volunteer at Hope Place.  There I am at the welcome desk where I welcome people who come to work with the residents, and I visit with the residents.  I was very nervous last week when I started, but through God's grace, it went fine, and I was able to complete my shift intact!  

I start leading my Bible study this week, and I hope all goes well, I hope people come, and I hope I can do a good job.  I am very nervous about it, and have been praying about it, so I hope that it comes to be a good experience for all.  

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

Washington, D.C.



My mom and I went to DC last week and these are 2 recommendations I can make re: DC.  First, is the Old Town Trolley Tours, which is a hop on hop off tour that goes on all day and will pick you up and drop you off at some hotels.  The drivers are friendly and know a lot about history.  They are also the only hop on hop off tour bus that goes into Arlington, which is a must see.  I was very impressed with their service and would use this tour in any city they are in.

Second is the Museum of the Bible.  I highly recommend this as well.  It is only 2 blocks south of the Smithsonian.  It is huge and has many cool exhibits that takes hours to see.  It was a very interesting and  amazing museum.  And it is free!  Although donations are welcome.  They have a fly over ride ($5) that shows you where the Bible is in the capital, exhibits about the old and new testament, a living village during Jesus' time, tons of Bibles, and an exhibit on how the Bible has influenced cultures throughout the world.  It is almost overwhelming all the artifacts there are to see.

So we had fun in our nation's capital.  As well as the previous time we were there, we visited some of the Smithsonian museums, and toured the many monuments and memorials.  Everyone there was so friendly and helpful, I was amazed and proud of our nation's capital.  I do love to travel!

Monday, May 21, 2018

Another Update


It has been almost a years since I started teaching at my school, and I finally found out about 2 months ago that I didn't get the four nights a week job.  But I still have the 2 nights a week job.  I'm not sure how I feel about this, but I picked 2 things to do those other nights, so that I can still stay busy and active.

One is that I am taking a drawing and painting class starting next month.  I am excited for this, for I have always wanted to do art but never allowed myself the luxury.  Now that I am working, I am giving myself this gift of doing something that I enjoy. 

Also, I am starting a Bible study next month as well, through my church.  I couldn't find a Bible study that fit my needs, considering the nights I work and how so many have age and stage restrictions.  I have never done this before, but it's something I've wanted to try.  

So that's what's new with me.  Oh, and I got a new car.  For those of you who know that my dad is  a big Ford fan, he got me a Suburu. He believes that's the safest car, and I trust his judgment on cars.  I know nothing about cars, so I thought this was wise.  I love it actually, I feel safe in it.  I feel rather spoiled in it, I never would have been able to afford it on my own.  But it makes things a lot easier for me.

And I am 50!  I heard that on average, people live into their 70s, so I realized, wow, I have 1/3 of my life left.  I better make it count.  

Wednesday, December 27, 2017

The Greatest Showman


My mom and I saw this movie yesterday in the theater.  And we loved it!  Everything about it was great, the music, singing, dancing, and acting.  

I especially loved it because I could relate to some of the characters.  I know what it's like to be different, a misfit.  It is not easy in a world that judges you based on how you look.  They had a place here, a job, a home, a family, at a time where there were no social services for them, little health care, and belief that people like us did not have a right to live a life as fully as possible.

I even dreamed of running away to join the circus as a child to be a trapeze artist.  I know that was terribly unrealistic, but I fantasized then that I was normal, and was famous for singing and dancing.  I loved to perform.  I loved being a part of something bigger that brought something beautiful to the world.  Even in this what some would call an ugly little body.  When I sang in the choir or danced on stage, I didn't feel ugly.  I felt beautiful.

I know the critics don't like this movie.  But movie goers do.  And I am one of them that thoroughly enjoyed it.  It was a feel good movie that is sorely needed in Hollywood.  

I think critics don't like the same things we like is that they have no joy and want to share in their misery.  We seek joy when we go to the movies, listen to music, or read a book.  We want to be entertained.  And the critics are jealous because these movies are successful and make a lot of money.  Where the critics' favorites make little money, are not successful, and only win stupid awards.  

About the animals, there were only elephants, the lions were computer generated.  Maybe they were elephants rescued from the real Barnum and Bailey Ringling Brothers.  Although I hate that there were wild animals in these circuses, they are now not there, and hopefully are back in the wild or a well run sanctuary.  Since my niece is in the circus, I have heard that the circus has saved some from a worse life..  Some are immigrants from another country and were given an opportunity to come here for a better life, and they are grateful for that.  So again, this is not a black and white issue, but one fraught with grey.  I think if we open ourselves up to trying to understand others, we may learn something, and we may appreciate that which we didn't  understand before.

So I highly recommend the movie.  The music is so great I bought the soundtrack and am loving listening to it!