I love reading memes. They just make me laugh! Anyways I liked this one, I think it is very apropos.
I have been feeling better these days. I don't know if it is the book I read, "The Grief Recovery Method for Pet Loss," an increase in meds, the time change, or the weather FINALLY warming up. But I do feel better.
I still don't know what to do about a pet. Should I adopt one or two cats, should I foster, what should I do? A part of me thinks fostering is better for now as I don't have to commit. But a part of me sees pictures of Siamese cats and I melt like hot chocolate.
I also thinks it helps me to stop watching FOX news channel and stop reading or opening anything on the internet that I know will upset me. I just try to stick to my icanhascheezburger.com and awkwardfamilyphotos.com. Both these sites crack me up. Also I find shows on TV that make me laugh, like Seinfeld, Modern Family, and The Big Bang Theory. They seem to have Cops and Cops Reloaded on a lot. I like to watch that because it is entertaining to see how stupid criminals are, how they lie so much even though the cops don't believe a word. Do they think cops are stupid or what? It makes me appreciate more of what the cops do. It is a thankless job, especially nowadays. They put their life on the line everyday for little money. Like soldiers, they deserve the respect that they more than earned. But I will get off my soapbox now.
I guess I just feel better. It is weird. When I get over a nervous breakdown I wonder am I really over it or is it just a nice, little, temporary respite? I wait for the other shoe to drop. I guess I didn't want to commit to anything as I felt such a doomsday feeling for a long time. Maybe that is what grief does, makes you feel like you have nothing left, that nothing matters. It is a scary feeling. It is a nightmare that you can't wake out of. It is a hell on earth that I wouldn't wish on anyone, except for terrorists of course!
I guess I can only take it one day at time. Appreciate the good days, the warm weather, the sunshine, and the laughs.